After posting a few pictures on my other blog I got copious emails from friends and family telling me that they think I'm way too skinny, and they are concerned. I agree, I am way too skinny, but it's not like I'm not trying to put on some weight. I've been thin all my life and while it's easy to scoff at, it can be just as difficult and stressful as being overweight. I struggle with my weight. I don't look good, I look like a skeleton and no clothes fit/stores don't have my size. I've been put on disgusting protein powder, weight gainer and all sorts of other concoctions to put meat on my bones. Sadly, the healthiest I have ever been in my life is when I was pregnant with twins. I also felt fantastic as well.
I consume roughly 2500-3200 calories a day, I know this because I put myself on a feeding routine just like my children, otherwise, I would never make the time to eat. I have to eat when they eat otherwise I have little piranhas at my ankles snapping and whining for me to toss them a bone. The plight of a skinny person is something that most people want to flip me off for, but I promise, it is a problem and it is hard to deal with. I'm weak, if I miss a meal I drop 2 pounds, my clothes just sag and people make comments. Any problem that someone overweight is currently having, I have it as well, I'm just on the other side of the spectrum.
Honey, you need to eat! Since my mom has been in town this week she has been shoving everything she can imagine down my throat. I'm trying to convince her that tests don't lie and my thyroid has gone ape-shit since the twosome were born. Not only did they eat me from the inside out but they messed up all the hormones coursing through my veins. I'm taking medicine for it but it hasn't seemed to do anything except break me out all over my face and back. So now, I'm a toothpick with acne. It's like 8th grade all over again. When I wear my glasses at night it's any wonder why my husband leaves town so often.
I'm posting this for me, because I know you, the reader, on the other side of the screen want to claw my eyes out right now, but I had to vent to the vastness of the internet. I have to go take my tons-o-vitamins and go drink my chocolate flavored Boost before heading to bed. I hope I don't break a bone on the way there.
Oh, how I understand. My thyroid also struggles massively after having babies and nursing made it even worse. Mine slows down so much that I look at food and gain weight. It is so frustrating. I am certain you feel the same way. One doctor told me that if you aren't responding to thyroid meds that you may need beta blockers as your thyroid could be having an inflammatory reaction. If you are following your dr's orders and there is no progress, go back. Tell him/her. Find a new dr if you must. No one will advocate for you. You must do it yourself. (Sorry for the lecture, I have been here and done this twice.) Good luck. You can get there!
ReplyDeleteya it's all a big mess isn't it! I don't understand how mine can be in hyperdrive and attacking itself at the same time. Supposed to be the other way around. Tests came back showing I had antibodies against my thyroid, wouldn't that shut it down?? It is inflammed though....beta blockers huh? Can I just take advil instead :) ! more meds, yay!
ReplyDeleteI'm not flipping you off but your thyroid gets my middle finger.
ReplyDeleteCan you put yourself on that eating routine from pregnancy?
My scale broke. What does that mean?