Yes, I realize that your first priority when it comes to motherhood is to take care of yourself. I do, for the most part, but taking care of myself by not taking care of my children is a concept I just can't get through my head. I know my husband and I need to go out on a date night, yet the practice of finding someone to watch the kids, getting dressed up, staying out past 9, and coming home seems so weird...and for NO good reason.
I think if we lived back in Texas we'd have a different take on things. We have a built in network of people that could help us out, but here in Miami, it's just...us. There is no one to drop the kids off with.
I saw a travel blog from a family that is back packing through Europe...with their 3 year old and newborn child!!!! I imagine it would be an easy time with the newborn if you were breast feeding but still, how do these people do it.
I feel like life is just winding down and I'm not living it. I gave myself all the excuses I could come up with during their first year of life. Their first year of life is the most important to establish trust and bonds. It's not good for their immune systems to get exposed to too many germs. Going strange places may overstimulate them and causes sleep problems. Ok, whatever. But the first year is over and done with. My excuse-o-meter is full. I have to get out there and do more things, but I'm...just...so...tired. It was all I could do to make it to Target with the pair of them today.
My hair hasn't been cut since they were born. I've had a pedicure at the demand of my mother-in-law and one because I was in a friends wedding. The only new clothes I bought were some tank tops and a cover up for our beach trip back in June. It's time. Can some one help make me, me again?
Valerie,
ReplyDeleteIt IS hard when you live in a place you are not familiar with, no friends and family you have known forever to trust with your babies. We've moved so much, I totally know how you feel. I think Mayah was at least 2 before I finally let someone watch her, and then it was only for about 30 minutes. Thankfully now, we have a really great church and have made some really good friends that I would trust with my kids. It's doesn't happen quickly or easily.
I hope you get your day! It WILL make you a better mommy, it will make you come home and love your family more! Even if you just leave them with Jason for the day, DO IT! I do that all of the time! Leave the kids with Luke...and it ends up being great bonding time for him and the kids. Good luck!!
haha...ya...he has to actually be in town though :)
ReplyDeleteMove back to Texas. We miss you :(
ReplyDeleteDammit Jason! Get your ass back to Miami!
ReplyDeleteDon't listen to me. I'm a year behind you and I don't want to leave Van with someone, even with Chris. They would be fine. I wouldn't be. I'm back at work. It's a balancing act on an hourly basis. You will balance yourself back to you so I've been told. It will be version 2.0- all the old stuff is still there along with new bonus features.
ReplyDeleteThis version Val 2.0 now comes with neuroticism and squash on her shirt. :)
ReplyDeleteWe will be moving back to Texas...someday...I just hope it's sooner than later, when I find out I'll let all my Texas friends know so they can hurry up and get pregnant. The timing will be just right for me to come play with all your new babies and then leave them with you for the night!