Monday, March 22, 2010

Where did I go.

Google, who has always been flawless in my eyes, messed up and the blog went for a joyride in cyberspace. It's back now, thank you google.

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This weekend I went on a girls trip for a friend's bachelorette party. I had a good 4.5 hour trip back home to sit all by myself, think and reflect. Sometimes this is not such a good thing for me because my head tends to go off into a million different directions at once.

My largest reflection was life. Not in a 18 year old entering college for a first time type of "life" revelation, but how my children have changed mine.

Besides the obvious, the largest impact they've had is PERSPECTIVE.

I see life through their eyes now. I see joy in everything. I see cause and effect. I see that people are good. People have different opinions. People. are. good.

Much to my un-liking there was some of what I call "trash talk" at this event. It didn't consume it but there was a good bit of it. Sitting around ranting about People. Talking shit about People. Bringing up other People's business. Name calling. Claw tearing. People bashing.

Years ago I would have been smack dab in the middle of it, listening, egging on, laughing. I now have zero use for it. There are so many things to talk about in life, why find joy in hurting others.

My days are centered around teaching my kids how to love, see love and be loved. I try to teach them that the world does not revolve around them and their opinions, but rather they should learn how to fit peacefully into the world. The lessons I teach them are rubbing off onto me.

People do things their own way, have their own personalities, have their own thoughts and private struggles. My children have changed me and for that I am forever grateful.

Great minds discuss ideas
Average minds discuss events
Small minds discuss people

Everytime I think I'm a grown up, I just wait a few years and it's shoved in my face how I still have so much further to go.

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